How do you make yourself choose life? (Not SU)

jillannMember

I am not having SU. I just want to be clear. This is not about that.

For a long time now I have felt like I am somehow separated from life. It goes on around me and I can't help but be involved with my children and husband and family. But I still feel isolated from it all. Therapy has felt like being on a screen porch. I can choose to look through the screen at life happening, or look at the screen and life is going on in the background. I just can't seem to figure out how to get off the porch and feel a part of life.

I don't know if I'm making any sense. And I don't know if much is this just related to caregiving for someone who is dying. Loving someone who often doesn't know who I am and can't remember anything that I do for her is exquisitly painful. But I don't know how to get beyond the screen and be a part of it anymore. Waiting for death to come feels like I'm wasting days of life.

How do I choose life?

Jillann

6/25/1411:54 AM

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