I forgot to address how your new P didn't handle your talking about the old P very well. That's one of the things I'm afraid of about going to a T at this clinic, that they'll be biased toward my T and not allow me to explore all my feelings and perceptions about what happened. I have no desire to get him in any kind of trouble - not that he's done anything "wrong" exactly, he hasn't - but I need to process all those feelings to get to the acceptance part. I don't want to stuff them down because then they'll just turn into resentment. But then again, if I misinterpreted something, I really do want to know about it, even if it offends my pride at first. A T with access to his notes, who interacts with him, will be able to see his side of it too. It's hard to know where to go from here. I guess I just have to try something and see what happens.
I think you did the right thing not going back to that P. It sounds like she was biased toward your old P and could have really discounted your feelings. That would have just made the situation worse. I'm glad your new T has given you the help you need to process your feelings. You've got great intuition.
Okay, I'm really done for now
I need to get my mind off this for a while. We're going to my mother-in-law's farm to pick apples. Pick, peel, and pack. Kind of a "Zen" approach.Thanks,
SG