I have been following your thread. I just wanted to add that I know absolutely NOTHING about my T except her age and that she is a mother of 4 sons, and I feel a total connection with her. Probably more connected and grounded and safe than have with any other T previously and I have known my Ts and information about out of therapy.
Therapy is not supposed to be give and take, it is not supposed to a mutual thing, it is supposed to be 100% about the client. I am glad my T holds to that.
Please take care and be careful. It is devastating how things can unfold.