The thing is, my T has made amends. She has apologized for her misstep, and admitted that it was a mistake on her part. That she misunderstood what I needed. She has sincerely apologized, and I do believe she meant it.

So you see, the problem isn't that she hasn't made amends, or tried to repair this break. It's me. It's all me. I'm the one who has put this distance between us. I'm the one having trouble regaining all the trust I lost. It's my fault, and I am the only one who can fix it now.

My T has asked me what I need from her many times, and I never have an answer. Right now, I just need to know that she hasn't given up on me completely. I just need to know that she'll give me another chance. I need my T to know that I am taking responsibility for this break, that I know this is my fault. And I need her to know that I want to fix this, and even though I don't know how right now, I can and will find a way. I know I can. I just need her to not give up on me yet.

Thanks for listening.

Musical Me