so, My last session went pretty well. I was surprised. She was on time, for the first time... lol... of course, she did appologize and explain what happened the prior 3 times and I found it fine... just thought it was funny cause she made a bigger deal out of it than I did. Anyways, I shared with her that my primary care appt. didn't go well... being put on more meds... some progressions in my illness... it sucks.... adrine is cool in the sense that she tries to understand and uses her empathy well but it's obvious that she really doens't Get it! I know it's hard.... she isn't sick.... she's healthy as a horse.... and I just miss that true understanding I had from Holly.

To make a long one hour session short...

I did manage to tell her that I'm really having difficulty dealing with the fact that she has so much knowledge of me through my record and I don't know her. It's very scary for me.

we established several therapy goals covering my mood, insomnia, anxiety and trauma issues. She said that saftey is of of upmost importance before pushing on trauma work so we will save that for latter and work on some of the other stuff like depression, etc...

This sounds like a great plan to me. I don't know if it was just my perception however, I felt like she was much more relaxed than usual and I felt this too... in me. That was nice.

I even told her about my teddy bear I used to take with me to therapy and the one I sleep with that helps me feel safe!!

Does anyone else have a stuffy that helps them feel better with triggers or whatever other issues trhey have???????

She told me she 'had' a stuffy dog.... and so I said.. 'had??'... lol..... she said.. well.. umm... and than I interrupted and said.. oh yeh.. you're married.. so... i guess that means your husband probably said he's the stuffed dog now! I think she got a little embarrassed..heheh. YAY.... haha... fun to get your therapist back a little, eh???

What are some things that people do for helping themselves process their sessions?? I try to journal about the session soon as I can after.... sometimes i can't write much so I wil take brief notes to try and recall certain things that stand out. I often come out and can't rememeber what was discussed? Anyone else experience this? Why?? Or why do you think??? I'm so curious about this..... I assume it has something to do with the degree of emotional activation but than what...

So that's all for now...