ct, i think i'm in the same boat! sometimes i just look at the mess around me and know i don't like it to be there whilst at the same time i just want to run away from all those expectations i have, that other people place on me - the rules of society and necessities of life that complete just SWAMP me every day and make me feel rooted to the place and unable to even pick a sock up on a bad day! more involved activities usually just frighten me stiff. but i just can't force myself any more. done that for a very long time but it results in bad headaches and worse. so i remain pretty useless.

my mum went to pieces after a divorce keeping me to look after my sisters and her when she was comatose and sick from alcolhol. so in my case, rebelling sounds about right to me! just wished i had done that a lot earlier. seems so pointless now as the only thing i'm rebelling against is in me. (if that makes sense, sorry, i don't find it easy to use words)

being married, in college, working full time sounds like a tall order to me - any one of them individually is certainly more than i can cope with. so i can't see how you being lazy would come in here!