Oh, it is just something I made for T that made him super-happy at the time. I did it, because I could not verbally confess my attachment to him and also all the painful experiences he was triggering. So I drew a map of how my relationship with both parents affected my interactions with him. It had something like the major features/characteristics of my relationship with each parent at the top, the word "transference" in the middle, a layer of various triggers I had observed (like words T used, actions T did, even just certain ways T is) causing me to experience past feelings. Then, a below that, a layer of internal reactions to those triggers and below that external responses to those transferred emotions. It was all connected by lines, such that it looked a little bit like a thought web or a thought tree. Anyway, T acted like I had given him pure gold or something, for several weeks. I don't think I would have had the guts to share that with T if not for the information and support I got here shortly after joining. And, if I look back at my old posts...I really can see the progress that sometimes feels like it's never there. Thanks for asking.