Affinity, I totally agree with AG. STAY with this. I have felt exactly what you are feeling and it will try to overpower us. This is some of the transforming work that will slowly unfold and heal us.Plow through it!! Just had a similar session on Friday and will return today to continue. This is very hard on us. My T was so gentle and calm and told me he has to be cautious with me because of past boundary violations with significant others. I bet your T knows just what you're trying to work through. Sometimes they just don't say it. And....they do know how scary and painful this is. Let him help you. My T did touch me on the shoulder three times in the past and he does not remember...I do. It was pivitol for me but he is drawing the line at hugging. I want to hug him, not for him to hug me, just out of genuine gratitude. Hey, I hear California therapists hug! I've been trying to put myself in Ts position and thinking how would I deal with me. It's been very thought provoking and he thought it was a good technique.