I don't think you're indifferent to my pain at all, and I haven't taken anything you've said in that way. So no worries. I really appreciate what you and TN and Very Hopeful are doing. Thank you.

I wasn't able to express any of these thoughts in session, because after he said his piece, I pretty much shut down. I spent most of the leftover time awkwardly staring at the carpet. And the internal ache was so bad that I couldn't put words to any of my feelings. All I could puzzle out (unspoken) at the time was "it's not fair." I also felt powerless, but I couldn't explain why. It took some time reflecting to get clear on the details.
I hope I can bring this up to my T on Friday. As long as I can keep that stupid shame monster at bay...