Welcome to the boards! As you've already figured out,you're not alone here, a lot of people completely understand how you feel. You're not cheating because you have feelings about your T,but I understand it can feel this way. My T is always telling me that instead of beating myself up for what my feelings are, that it might be better to examine the feelings to see how I'm reacting and what I'm reacting to.It's usually good advice. Its actually a healthy sign in therapy when you feel this way, that you're wanting connection. And it was very brave of you to tell him how you felt, and if I may echo Katskills, how did he respond?
AG