I'm sorry for the hurt you're going through. I don't have much to add because you're getting excellent input, but I just wanted to say Five months?!!?? I mean, it took me that long to make eye contact, for pete's sake. I've been at this for over 20 years and am on my fourth run of therapy. I have left and come back three times and worked with two different therapists.
I don't want to scare anyone, I don't think it takes most people this long but just in case you feel like you're taking a long time, comfort yourself with the thought that you know someone who has taken longer.

So it doesn't suprise me at all that you may need to do more work. Especially since it sounds like there was a lot you didn't feel able to say.
AG