I'm sorry to hear that your transference talk did not go well. I hope that you have stopped beating yourself up for not being able to express yourself.. It is hard for me too !! We are so hard on ourselves and the topic of transference is SO hard and scary..
The fact that your P didn't seem to make much of an effort to help you either.. maybe this says that he feels uncomfortable with the topic as well ?
ay I suggest something ? What if you call your P's receptionist and ask them to reschedule your next appt earlier.. at least in a month, like he said? I'm not sure if there was a reason why you were scheduled for 6 weeks, instead of 4 weeks, but if it was an oversight or misunderstanding, I'm sure you can get that appt earlier.. It's true the wait causes more anxiety because you so desperately are keeping what you want to say inside.. I don't know you might find too that as time goes by that it might all tone down.. We are all so different..
Take Care, Flicka
