It is hard to deal with sometimes. I would love to see my P more often, I really wish I could see him a couple times a week or at least once a week. I was complaining to my old high school psychologist about not seeing my P more often and feeling like I needed to and he told me that it was probably better right now for me to have the month between appointments. He said because I am working on really hard stuff I need that time to think about what happened and deal with it. And my P is always available if I really needed him. I could call him and tell him I need to come in sooner and he wouldnt tell me no. And I also bug him through texting and emails. I actually have found a reason to text him almost every day since my last appointment. But have been good about no phone calls yet. But then about two or three weeks after the appointment I kind of calm down knowing that I am closer to seeing him again and will stop texting and calling so much. He gets mad at me for the texting too much but I figure he can get over it. I decided that if I have to deal with the feelings of going crazy because of the transference all by myself then he can deal with the texting and emails and being mad at me and get over that on his own.