Yaku you are very brave to disclose so much to your T. But I do believe that you have developed great trust in your T or you would not have been able to be that openly honest with him.

Your T has years of experience and has heard a lot from many people. He is interested in what happened to you only as a way to further the therapy and to help you heal. This is only information you are giving to him and does not change how he thinks of you. It just helps him understand on a deeper level what you wrestle with.

It is similar to medical doctors and gyn's. They see patients' bodies all the time. They do not have any thoughts of the patient other than on a scientific and medical level. They are just doing their best to help the patient and that is where it ends.

I hope this is of some comfort to you. You will go back to see T because you have a trusting and valuable relationship of care and nurturing. You will continue to grow closer and this will only help and not hurt your relationship.

Hugs to you
TN