quote:What happened and how you were affected aren't the same as what you are - what you are is a loving, kind, pure heart and spirit. There's no monster here, just a lot of hurt and pain. But I suspect that having taken the huge and important and healthy step of disclosing/owning history to your T and to yourself, you really need him, the person who knows you so well, to be there reflecting back to you who you really are, which is someone who is loved and deserves to be loved. I think it's really super important that he reads what you wrote, and is able to give you what you have identified that you need: to know that you are safe with him, and you cannot make him bad.
Jones that was beautifully said!
Yaku I agree with the above quote whole heartedly. You are not bad and cannot make anyone else bad. You are a sweet, giving, kind person and your T knows that best of all so you need to stay close to him during this difficult processing.
You took a hugely brave step. Keep walking. You and T together can conquer anything.
Hugs
TN