(((Sky))) I'm trying not to quit. I know T will give me all the time I need to actually discuss it in person with him, but it's almost like now that it's out there, it won't go away. My skin is crawling with being more aware of this stuff. I may have to do what my H asked me, which is to show up and be quiet as long as I need, but just to keep trying, keep going, until I get through this period.
I texted him today about some stuff coming up that we have an agreement I will keep him informed of if it's going on in my head. And from there, I just kind of blurt-texted why doesn't he just give up on me or get rid of me.
All he texted back was, "Silly one." I can't imagine him being able to stand being near me (well, that's not new, but it's stronger than usual). And what I need most right now is the safest person in my current universe to be there.
It's almost as if he's not a threat, then the only other option is that he obviously can't stand to stay.