I've been avoiding thinking about the situation, because it brings up...a lot of stuff. But, T is working on the holiday tomorrow, so I will see him. It's nearly our four year anniversary. Our first session was on Labor Day four years ago. I don't really want to process anything for a while. What I want more than anything is to spend as many sessions as it takes to get back to "safe" in that room before moving forward. I really need to have confidence he's in my corner before I can face any more right now.