Thank you for your kind and gentle response. Your words did not upset me in the least, and I appreciate the perspective you were willing to offer me.
Perhaps this is my long-held grief finally coming out in relation to my being adopted, and certainly coming out in a way that I was not expecting. And you are right, there are definitely feelings of missed opportunity, and not being given a chance, in addition to all the other feelings I have.
I believe that my T is doing the best she can. I know I need to understand and forgive her. So much easier said than done, with all these messy emotions crowding in on me.
Thank you again for your support and encouragement. I felt a small amount of relief after I posted, as if the weight on my heart had eased a little just by voicing my thoughts and feelings.
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