I did go to my session on Wednesday, armed with a letter to read her about my thoughts and feelings. After reading my letter, she asked me some questions for clarification. I have to say that I felt my T didn't really understand where I was coming from. She was kind, and listened, but the understanding and acceptance I so badly needed to feel just wasn't there.

The session wasn't going so well, and all I could think about was getting out of there. Then my T said, after several minutes of silence, that she wanted to continue working with me. And I asked why. I swear, the word just popped out of my mouth without my mind thinking of the potential consequences. My T said, "Because I like you. I care about you. Because I see in you what you can't yet see in yourself." She went on to say that I could go and do this work at another time with another therapist. But that she wanted to be there when I do see what she sees in me, not because she's made me see anything, but just because it just happens. My T said it was selfish of her, but she wanted to be there when that awareness and knowledge happened.

Of course, I was in tears at this point. And I felt this warmth kind of spread within me. Her response was so completely unexpected. And so incredibly beautiful. I do truly believe she meant every word.

Anyway, I just thought I'd update you on what happened.

Thanks,
Musical Me