(((erica))) i think i know what you're saying and i like it. i think i'm actually starting to accept that i am dependent on him, for now, anyway, in the comfort of my own home. definitely not an easy thing to do, but right now at the moment i'm feeling like fighting it is so much more difficult than accepting. it's really been a hellish 7 months, all of my own self-inflicted doing. thanks for your input, erica!
hi (((cat))). the end (at the moment) is not triggering. maybe because i've been at the pseudo-end a couple of times now. it HAS been triggering to even just think about the ending stuff, though. agonizingly so. he never seems to quite get that. yeah, sometimes i wonder if T's realize how important everything they say and how they say it is to their clients. i hope you can talk to your T about it since it was so hurtful. i'm sure she didn't mean it to be interpreted that way.