Oh Ninn, that sounds rough! I don't know anything about you or your T, but I am slowly (by reading here for example) coming to accept that allowing ourselves to become (temporarily) dependent on our T can be an important part of therapy. Unfortunately, not all Ts are comfortable with this and of course there are so many different approaches to therapy. Your T doesn't sound terribly attuned to you right now and I don't mean to be too forthright but I would personally consider looking for another T too. I know that would be a massively difficult step, but it seems such a fundamental issue...
I'm finding the whole dependency and attachment thing really, really difficult and while I sense that my T is all for this type of therapy, I still feel I need her to tell me it's okay to feel this attachment and dependency (whatever that means - must read rest of thread!) because it feels so weird and sort of wrong.
Anyway, sorry to hear about your situation...
D&C