Hey BLT,

Yeah, that's what I'm asking (I think!). But I don't think I get the "feeling brain" and how/why it can interrupt my thinking brain. If I know, with my thinking brain, that a situation is safe, why does it feel so not safe? How is that possible? How does that work?

Or maybe this is my question: In November, I went into therapy. I had the big AHA! that my feelings were actually wrong. I was having full trauma response to things that were not actually truly scary. They just felt scary to me. But I figured it out. I figured out that bad things happened to me when I was a kid. I figured out that I have scared/traumatized feelings from before. Why doesn't that POOF! make them disappear?

Thank you for the phrase "like they are still happening." Yes, exactly what it feels like. Yes! But why? If I know I'm safe, and know that I wasn't safe before when I was a kid, why do I still FEEL like it's still happening?

And I understand the "idea" of integration - I process this stuff, it integrates, my wounded child self diminishes, I feel better - but I don't get the how of that. Or the way of it, I guess. How it works, looks like, feels?