I'm glad you let it stand, because you are acceptable and worthwhile just as you are, and with all of your feelings and all of the effects of what happened to you. No, you're not perfect, but no one is, we are human and it's ok to accept the stuff you don't like along with the stuff that makes you proud of yourself. And yes, at first it's a blink, but those brief episodes will continue to stretch out until the blinks are the times where you DON'T feel ok. It's happening, you're healing, it's just hard to see in the midst of doing so. Really glad that being able to share here and read other people's experiences is helping your healing.
AG
PS It took me a VERY long time, but I have come to recognize that some of my greatest strengths have grown out of needing to heal from my childhood injuries. I am not grateful for the abuse, but I am grateful for the person it helped to make me. (I really hope that makes sense, it's hard to articulate, more of a felt thing.)