I just went through asking my T for what I need which was more validation and warmth in her responses to me. It was so incredibly difficult to do that. I grappled with guilt over asking because even though I know I want and need validation and warmth I still believe on some level that I don't deserve it. Her response was favorable and it has left me feeling really confused. I have some shame attached to asking in the first place. Getting the need met feels very strange. I am glad, but it is not something I am used to.
Reply to "Why protective of T?"
For me, I know that I am a demanding and time consuming patient and I have told two of my Ts exactly in those words how I am so it is not that I don't put my WARNING label right out there. I definately know my T can take care of herself and I know what her boundaries are.
I just went through asking my T for what I need which was more validation and warmth in her responses to me. It was so incredibly difficult to do that. I grappled with guilt over asking because even though I know I want and need validation and warmth I still believe on some level that I don't deserve it. Her response was favorable and it has left me feeling really confused. I have some shame attached to asking in the first place. Getting the need met feels very strange. I am glad, but it is not something I am used to.
I just went through asking my T for what I need which was more validation and warmth in her responses to me. It was so incredibly difficult to do that. I grappled with guilt over asking because even though I know I want and need validation and warmth I still believe on some level that I don't deserve it. Her response was favorable and it has left me feeling really confused. I have some shame attached to asking in the first place. Getting the need met feels very strange. I am glad, but it is not something I am used to.