Sky what a great question. I have a lot of the same feelings you do. I did finally call my therapist this week for an earlier appt. I did get the apt but have felt horrible for doing that. Even though after the apt he told me he was glad I called and went ahead and came in, I still feel I overstepped the boundary.

It took a lot of support from my husband for me to even attempt the call. Ok so husband actually called and handed the phone to me while it was ringing. (Oh I so wanted to hang up!)

I think part of it is the shame like cat mentioned. I have never had my needs meet as a child so how can someone meet them now? I am still waiting for the day he turns out just like all of them (the people in my past).