I appreciate all the comments on this thread. This has been very distressing to me and I'm not sure what to make of it, why it is happening or where it comes from.

I'm struggling still, because I had hoped yesterday would be the end of these words, but they started up again today. And now I'm getting hives which I'm pretty sure is related to the stress of this and of T being unexpectedly gone.

I am, however, starting to look at some of the words and phrases to try to figure out what they mean. At first, I would guess a meaning and then wonder if I got it right. Then I thought - heck, this is my language - if this is what I think it means, that's what it means. I've been going through the words and coming up with some very interesting "translations" that make sense linguistically and personally.I wish I could share it with you, because you'd probably find it interesting, too. I just can't tho. It's way too close to core stuff and I can't risk exposing it. I so, so want T to come back so I can get some help with all of this.

Thanks for being here, y'all.

-RT