(((MC))) I'm not sure how you discovered the things that are the roots of your problems now, but I can imagine not really knowing is scary. Being paranoid makes sense. I'm not sure what it is like exactly but I do know there are a number of people who have come to things much later. Hopefully someone else can chime in on then dream stuff and connections. I get triggered with recovered memory stuff and my own personal stuff puts me in a cautious position. There is a lot more room for fluidity and/or making connections!
I hope I didn't come off as dismissive or something. I really do think the 'meat' of processing dreams is the connections we presume they make. So... It's just my experience!

Sorry I can't help more but of course a good place to start is with T when you can
Please update when you can talk to your T.