Hi DaRock. Oh the Bowie quote is a line from his song ‘Five Years’ and I picked it because my head is such a mess most of the time that my brain hurts trying to sort it out, sort of tongue in cheek but true nevertheless. Thanks for explaining about your therapists. If you’ve only been with this latest one a few months then there’s hope yet. You don’t say whether you hate him too (though maybe you do because you’ve said you hate all of them?) I can very much relate to that global feeling of...

Well, Amazon, I have a family of my own, but I'm still jealous of my T's family. I don't know if a Mother's Day holiday is ever celebrated in countries other than the U.S., but here its Mother's Day this Sunday. I know my T will be spending it with her grown children whose privilege it is to call her Mom. I know what each of her five children's names and ages are and even what they look like. I've even met her middle child who is the closest one to my age. My T has told me that her own kids...

I see it this way - you 'could' ignore it and vow to never ever ever talk about it... BUT - it's kinda like the proverbial giant elephant in the living room. What I found helpful was to write a list of all the things I found so incredibly hard to talk about -many things on the list were 'this I will never ever talk about!'. You can list them or rank them in order of easiest hard thing to hardest of hard thing. I then told my T I had a List of Hard Things I didn't really want to talk about...

One more, just for Sunday THE BRIDGE 'You didn't do enough- You didn't say enough- You didn't give enough-' "I gave all I could," was the reply- "More than anyone ever should-" These words silenced the jury who judged the years while they witnessed the fury wrapped in tears- So much so they left their seat- As they locked their arms against defeat. They took the planks of silent strength and built a bridge to go any length- It reached to all no matter the rank- From those in the ship to...

Hi guys, Just making a list for myself of different kinds of trust and comparing how my "top 4" people rank in each one. Here's the ones i have so far: Trusting person not to tell anyone else what I tell them Trusting person to handle what I tell them Trusting person to understand me Trusting person to believe what they tell me Trusting person to be there if I need them Trusting person to be able to be vulnerable with them Are there any other kinds of trust you guys can think of? I think...

CT Well done you for not cutting - of all the things you ARE managing to achieve (and that’s a pretty long list too!) the not cutting has got to rank up there pretty highly. And wow about your mother’s comment - it sounds like she put herself in some sort of belittling competition with you - not only negating you but putting the burden of her problems onto you (you think you’ve got it bad well what about this… type of communication). That is so bad, I can imagine how it would make you feel...

I am a romantic type 4 and it fits me to a T. LOL! The hopeless romantic. As for the Love Test I rank highest for quality time with a close second of both words of affirmation and physical touch. Seems right to me. JM

Belated ***TRIGGER WARNING - Mentions SU and communicating about it*** (((Cat))) This new Pdoc isn't for meds. There just has to be one seeing if I should be in the program and coordinating my participation. They said after the first meeting, I probably won't see them much. I'm just on high alert after the last one kept asking questions about my experiences and then knocking them down. Like, she doesn't worry when she treats moms with SU, because a mother would never, ever do that. When she...