4.5 years of sobriety dangerously close to being ruined

thekidMember

As I continue to expose the many painful layers of feelings I doused with ridiculous amounts of alcohol for more than 20+ years, I'm at the point now where I'm wondering if I can (or should) continue with therapy. As I go deeper, it sometimes feels unbearable without the aid of alcohol to numb myself again. Why would any sane person knowingly and willingly do this to themselves?

I've been in counselling/therapy going on 5 years and this is the shakiest I've ever felt since I stopped drinking, and that includes when my brother died. I forced myself to an all-women's AA meeting last night because it was either that or steering the car in the other direction to the liquor store. That's scaring the sh*t outta me.

The Kid

7/25/136:46 PM

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scars09Member

Hang in there Kid, as RT says one day at a time.

7/25/1311:19 PM

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