marsh. wow. i am so sorry for your pain. i hate that you were so alone with no one to tell. i wish and pray for your success in this therapy, and for an end to your pain.

all i have is hugs and empathy, and prayers.

you are heard. i believe eternal justice will prevail.

xxoo, jill

Marsh,

I was not able to read all that you wrote, but I just wanted to let you know how brave I think you are for sharing your story. I am a survivor myself and I know how difficult it can be to discuss this with people.

I hope that you find some peace in sharing your experience with others and are able to rise above the pain that was perpetrated against you.

Marsh I am speechless at the agony and cruelty you had to endure as a child/teen. I'm so sorry for your pain and for you having no one but your grandpa to depend on and to care about you.

You are very courageous to post this here and to share your story. I hope in writing this out and sharing that it is somehow healing for you and will lighten the heavy burden you have carried for so many years.

Thank you for sharing.

Safe hugs,
TN

Marsh,

I am so sorry for what you went through. Thank you for having the courage to share with us and trusting us with your story. I'm so sorry for your pain. (((Marsh)))

((marsh)) i`d like to join the chorus saying its great that you shared this. Hope you are comfortable with sharing this. I think writing "the story" from our lifes, espescially the hidden and horrible ones, can play an important part of our healing prosess. Writing, expressing it and verbalize it. I that sense "get it out" of our body and gain a distance to it also. I am so sorry for whats done against you.

((((Marsh)))))
It was both heartbreaking and inspiring to read your post.

Heartbreaking because it can be terrifying to look into the depths of the evil which humans can be capable of. And that you were treated so horribly and left unprotected by the very people who should have loved and protected you just makes it that much worse. I wish there were some way to go back and rescue the girl that you were and give her everything she deserved: to be loved, protected and nurtured and to live in safety. I am so sorry for the horrors you've lived through and the pain I know you have carried for so long.

It was inspiring because you survived that with enough of yourself still intact to be here speaking of it and reaching out to help other people deal with their pain. Do you have any idea how amazing you are?

Thank you for sharing your story with us, I felt honored that you were willing to do that here. I wish I had better words to express how moving it was to read that.

AG

Marsh, thank you so much for sharing your story. I found it inspiring and really made me think about writing out or talking about in full an experience that I had as a child. The actually experience is so jumbled and confusing and I still don’t know if I actually care to remember it in full. I’ve only talked about after when I got in trouble for it and my mom made me apologize. It was very courageous to share in such detail what happened, and it is very understandable that you would feel vulnerable. Thank you again for sharing.

Marsh

I am so sorry to hear of your pain. I wasn't able to read it all, I'm sorry, but respect and thank you for your bravery and honesty in what you shared.

Sending you warm and comforting hugs,

starfish

Dear Marsh
For surviving such horrors that no human should be subjected to
For posting,sharing and honouring us with a part of your story
For being able to at last, cry your heart out in the company of your caring T
.

Marsh I'm sorry I'm late to respond - it's a hard post to respond to with anything remotely adequate I don't know if having such clear cognitive recall of all that happened to you is a blessing or a scourge but you are dealing with it with dignity and strength

I don't know how far along you are with healing but you will probably go ahead in leaps and bounds now that you're letting the pain out!

It's New Year's Eve here in Australia and I wish you a *healing 2011*
Many warm
Morgs

Marsh for your kind response to me and all (if you lived in Australia with a title like *Marsh* you would be forever known as *swampy* - we're a funny mob down here
I'm so for this great step forward you've taken

Morgs

Marsh

Thank you for your concern, but I need to reassure you that you didn't trigger me, I just chose not to read all of what you wrote in case I was. It was late for me when I saw your post and I try to be careful what I read or watch in the evenings so I don't get triggered.

But I need to say that you did absolutly the right thing in posting what you did - and I have read it all very carefully now and remain so shocked at your experiences. I am so glad that in posting and in talking to your T, in crying those precious tears with her that have been stored up for so long, you have started to feel validated for your horrific experiences and can start the slow journey of moving on from these terrible events.

I also want to say I am so pleased that you had a gramps that you could talk you and that obviously cared and loved you so much. He was obviously a special person in your life.

Thank you for your bravery Marsh,

quote:

You know what, I have gotten so many hugs from everyone that I feel like I am in a well filled with them and I am a sponge just soaking them all up! Damn they feel great!!

....one more then to add to the well
((((Marsh))))

starfishy

Marsh,

I read your post last night and I must admit it was very difficult. Not because I was triggered by anything you wrote but because I cannot believe how cruel people can be. I'm so sorry you had to endure that pain and carry it with you for so long. I'm glad you had Gramps in your life so you can experience love. You are a very brave and couregeous women and I hope by finally talking about it with your T and posting you are able to move on with your life.

much love,

PG

Marsh,
I'm so glad you have a DH and kids and continue to experience love. I was thinking how cool and nice it is that you have finally told your story and are beginning to heal just as this year ends. I think that is a good reason to celebrate.

PG

Hi Marsh
I am sorry it has taken me so long to reply, i was away and my internet crashed the day before we went so i only read your post now.

I have no words to express what reading your story was like. What you survived as a young girl is unimaginaeable to me even now in the middle of my life and how you managed to grow into the caring and amazing woman that you are is utterly extraordinary.

I will never forget what you shared with us and in the darker moments of my life it will give me strength and courage to face my own difficulties and endure the suffering i am undergoing.

Your tears have been a long time coming and i am so very glad that your T was there with you in the best possible way and that you were finally able to grieve the brutal loss of your youth and innocence.

I am so sorry for what you had to experience. Thank you for telling your story, your courage in surviving what happened to you has touched me deeply.

Pandora

((((MARSH))))

Had difficulty reading through and had to skip parts. Not because it's triggering for me but I feel so much hurt for you. Just want to offer my love and empathy.

So sorry you had to carry this around for so long.

(((((HUGS))))))

Liese

I have only just caught up on this thread and I wanted to send warmth and care to you and say that I am so sorry you had this to carry for so long and I hope you have help and good support now and that you really heal.
thank you for sharing and posting and there is not doubt that you have had an awful time in your childhood, truly pain filled and traumatic.