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Jo,

Things are always slow this time of the evening. It isn't anything to do with you or what you posted.

I have been really glad to see you here posting and have enjoyed getting to know you. I felt like I could really relate to many of the things you posted.

I'm sorry you are feeling bad about being here. I loved your T's response by the way.

(((hugs)))

(((((((jo)))))))
Haven't been keeping up on the forums lately, but am really sad to read this.

Jo,

Please don't feel sad for posting so much. There will be times when you need more than others, and there will be days when you need less. Things like this seem to come in waves. I think we can all relate to what you are feeling.

jo - i very much like having you here and what you post about. don't want to pressure you to stay, but i really really hope maybe you reconsider and do stay. i so want to respond and have been planning on it. slow typing and limited right now. i will miss you much if you go. i don't think there is anything at all you need to apoligize for. not one bit. nope, not at all. pls don't go.

Jo, I loved having you back here and I enjoyed your insight and especially in hearing how you have grown and what you have accomplished during the time you were away. I would ask you to please stay here with us because we need you here with us.

I just came on. The time you posted was during my dinner and get child to bed make lunches time of day. Please don't take lack of immediate response as an answer to your post in any way. There are just times around here when the board is less populated and very slow.

Hugs to you
TN

Oh, I just now saw the second post about leaving.

Please don't, Jo. I read your first post earlier and wasn't able to respond right away, but as I said above, I don't think you are posting too much. I very much enjoy your presence here and can say with all sincerity that I was looking forward to getting to know you better. I really hope you reconsider and don't leave.

Oh, and btw, I've had those days where I'm like screw this place, I'm leaving!!!! So if you do change your mind (and I hope you do), please don't be embarrassed about having changed your mind. So many of us can relate to what you are experiencing.

Hope to see you on here tomorrow!!!

I would totally link to that PAD thread if I wasn't the one who started it- I can't link to threads with my name on them because of...P.A.D.

Jo, you are so welcome here and with all the others I'm hoping you'll decide to stick around... you're a great person. I'm not too great at posting and I'm missing tons of threads that I want to respond to, but I am drained and spacy and haven't got a lot of time or good thoughts, so I've been trying to ignore my anxiety about it and just do what I need to do for me right now. It's hard.

But I really like you and I think you are neat, and I hope you stick around! As for people not responding qucikly...heck, there have been times when I didn;t get a response for like two days, and then other times when I got like 20 all at once...it's just the way it goes, sometimes there are people around who feel capable of posting and other times not... doesn't matter what the content is, it's just are there people who feel able to post on the thread or not...and says nothing about you if there aren't.

Heck, don't worry about being a "know it all" is that what you think? sheesh...we are all know it all's around here, I think! that's why this place works...we can all offer something from our own experiences and stuff like that. But yeah, DF is right- primarily we should feel ok just posting about us and using this place for suppor t and what we need.

I like the way that was put..and you don't come aross as a know it all, though, you have a lot of insight and great stuff to offer from your own experience and we all value that here, that is for sure!

((((((Jo))))))

BB

Jo, I would normally have more to say around this, and I don't because of reasons totally unrelated reasons, but I just wanted to say that I would be very sad to see you go. I didn't know you from before, but I've honestly valued everything you've said since you've been back recently. But it is truly your choice whether to stay or go, and I support whatever decision you make. And even if you decide to leave, know that you are welcome at any time. ((((((Jo)))))))

Hey Jo
We haven't met but I've been reading your posts - I'm just not able to talk much at the moment - but do want to say PLEASE DON'T GO!!! There's no need - you have not upset anyone/crossed boundaries or anything and have been very supportive since your return. You're just feeling a bit raw!! Love your T's response.
Take care and stay please!
Morgs

ooh, I forgot to say I love your t's response too thanks for sharing that wiht us!

((((((Jo)))))) Just caught this thread a few minutes ago. I very much enjoy reading your posts and have never even remotely felt that your posts were "too much", or that you were bugging anyone, and certainly not inappropriate or annoying. On the contrary, I think you sound like a very compassionate, intelligent, insightful person, with an awful lot to give here (I personally would LOVE to hear about those "major breakthroughs in therapy" you mentioned) and I very much hope you do not leave the Psych Cafe.

Unfortunately for the last several months I haven't been posting much - not sure why - the "PAD" coined by Beebs and described here by Deepfried is at least part of it - and it's only recently that I've posted on a couple of threads. I feel very bad for not posting on more threads, but my not posting has nothing at all to do with anyone here personally - I just feel "stuck" most days for what I would consider anything helpful or worthwhile to say.

I'm really glad you had such a good connection with your T today. I love how she responded to you, she sounds like a gem. Thank you for sharing this with us.

Please stay, OK?

Hugs,
SG

Hi Jo

Please don't feel that you have to go - i really enjoyed reading your posts, even if I can't always respond, it's not because I don't want to. I also have huge PAD issues plus more significantly for me, huge time pressures that have made me step back from posting or risk going bonkers with trying to keep up all the time . Sometimes I don't read posts for a day or two and I guess with us all being spread worldwide, an hour of waiting for a response may feel like eternity to you, but is not very long for those reading. Sometimes I need to go and think about a post before I start writin to be sure that I am expressing myself correctly (Beebers, is that also PAD?!)

So don't go Jo, be brave and stick around. We have a lot to learn from you and your great-sounding T. BTW I thought her response was spot on in the email you quoted.

Take care,

starfish

Jo,

Please don't go! Sometimes no one answers for a while and I do the same thing and think, they must think I'm nuts, or they're tired of hearing from me. Not true. We are all here at different times and try to get to answer as fast as we are able. I myself have been kind of "missing" for a while. Sorry I didn't get to your post sooner.

Smiley

Hi Jo,
I also want to put in my vote for you staying! It's been lovely to have you around again and I can hear how much progress you've been making. You have not come across as a know it all in the slightest, just someone willing to share their experience. I think it's really helpful that people share their successes as well as their struggles and it can provide hope and insight for other people.

I also want to agree that you did happen to post in a dead zone. The present group of people who are consistently posting are spread across the globe so it can often take up to 24 hours before everyone's had a chance to read a post let alone respond to it. I'm heading out to the doctor's this morning with what I suspect is a sinus infection (or a total collapse of my immune system due to recent stress ) and I was running a fever yesterday afternoon and felt like a truck hit me so the only thing I managed to post was a link to a video.

And here's the link to the PAD thread, I really think you should read it before deciding you're going to leave.

Do you have P.A.D.??

AG

Oh, Jo, I have felt just so. I definitely recommend the PAD thread. Almost all of us can relate, you will see. I, personally, have enjoyed getting to know you so far, and appreciated getting a response back so quickly on my threads. I have been a triggery mess, so it has been hard for me to participate at my usual level, but usually I am the one whose name tends to end every single thread, LOL, so I know how it can feel. (((((Jo)))))

Okay I barely read the responses here because I am feeling rather stupid now.

I saw enough to see that you guys are talking about PAD. I saw that thread. Yes I could relate all too well. Plus I think this all brings something up for me. I have hidden myself away from the world for about a decade now and just being in this on line forum is a challenge. The fact that you are all so nice and accepting is even more challenging. I would know what to do if you were mostly trolls like you find on youtube or whatever.

I am going to go lick my wounds and when I feel I can face this embarrasment I will come back. I need to look at why I bolt from people who are nice and caring. I knew I didnt' give that enough time and totally set this up. Not intentionally but something in me set this up. I come from a huge family and trust me that wasn't good because my family could be so mean and I keep waiting to be publicly criticized especially after disclosing all that I have here recently.

Decent people here. I will remind myself of that.

Jo

(((((Jo)))))

I'm sorry that the acceptance hurts and feels embarrasing- I know how that feels. Just know that you have nothing to be embarrassed about- we have all felt the same way that you feel right now, and we completely understand how icky it feels. Take all the time you need, but just know that you are liked and appreciated here, and nobody thinks badly of you, or thinks that you set anything up- so many of us have had a thread just like this one at one time or another!

(I agree that this place is special- everyone here is really great!)

(((Jo))) FWIW I've done this kind of thing many times. When something good comes along (as a recent example, a friendship), it seems to set up kind of a "hair trigger" within me where I will take something that is said (or not said) or done (or not done) and will very rapidly make a case whereby I am being cruelly rejected, again...just as I knew I would be. It's like I can't have something good in my life without waiting for the other shoe to drop. I really do believe this response has its roots in the things that have happened to us in the past...and it's only by being honest about what is going on, with people who are safe to confide in, and being met repeatedly with something much different (and better) than expected, that we can re-wire those old pathways. And if you are like me, it will take more than a few repeats. So please be gentle with yourself, okay? You've done nothing wrong at all. I'm really glad you were honest about how you were feeling...now I don't feel quite so bad about how I do it, too...and I'm really, REALLY glad you came back to respond. I hope to hear from you again soon.

Hugs,
SG

Hello

I have avoided this thread and I am sorry because I know a lot of you said a lot of nice things. I am having trouble reading it. I cringe and squint my eyes in an effort not to see much of what was said when I come on here to make these comments. I know that you guys are being supportive. I just feel like a total ass and it's all public.

So I do not in any way mean to insult anyone here. I am not ignoring you per se. I am just not wanting to see the results of my stupid actions. I really wish I could remove this post and now I have learned a lesson that you can't remove posts once they are up. That sucks.

Mostly I commented just now to say please understand that I appreciate your responses and I am not ready to read them.

Thanks

for whenever you are ready to read this: you are not at all being an ass or a problem in any way at all. so sorry you feel overwhelmed by the support. one thing to remember, lots of people feel like you, and when you express it you help them feel less alone. and the support asnd acceptance is bc we can relate and we want to support and accept you just as you are. if you really want to, i think attachment girl coul delete the thread, and if you want, i can delete my responses... if thats what you want and need in the end. its up to you. id understand. that being said, i dont see anything bad at all about this thread and i bet it has helped others too. take all the time you need.

Thanks Jane. It's not really about the support it's about my stupid actions. But I do appreciate your input on this.

Thanks

Hi Jo,

I missed this thread so sorry I am late. But I've really appreciated your comments on my threads. Please don't go. You are very nice.
We are all here to help each other.

Liese

quote:

Please know, you never ever have to give support in order to receive support here. You give to us just by posting about you and your battle. I feel a lot less alone in my own battle with this in my own life just by you posting about it. Thanks for sharing it with us.

I "borrowed" this quote from Jane's response on one of my threads. It feels so good to know that we are ALL in good company here - with our PAD moments and our embarrassing post moments... whenever you need it, this place is always here and waiting!

I know my participation ebbs and flows depending on my RL situation. But I'll tell you, this is the first place I come when I'm spiraling, and the quickest way for me to come out of the darkness!

You guys have been so very nice.

So many replies that it's hard to reply to each.

I don't want to leave someone out so I will just generally reply

Now I worry that I have offended you guys by not responding. (ARGH) I guess that is PAD again.

I will remember that we all have the potential to suffer from PAD.

I want you all to know that your responses here have made a big difference to me.

This place is very important to me and I swear if it weren't for it I'd be so alone with all these struggles.

Being able to post here and read and respond is a true gift and I knew after I posted that that I was throwing away a precious gift. So thanks for giving me another chance at this.
Jo