FMN, is what you have vaginismus? I had a friend who had that. It means you close up very tightly and painfully as a reflex with any kind of penetration. It is treatable and she could have sex fine after she finished with the treatment AFAIK.

Alpaca: a friend of mine did mention that I might have this too. I guess I'd go to a sexual health clinic to get it sorted. I hope it's just this but I'm not sure. When I had a boyfriend, it took 6 months to get used to sex but even them I clenched up bad. It scared me an awful lot when I let go and it did actually hurt. Since then I've taught myself that I'll never do it again. It is way too scary. So I'm not sure if its a psychological thing rather than biological. But it's worth going to see a nurse I guess. Thanks.

Well FMN, vaginismus is both both psychological and biological, but the point is you should be able to desensitize it either way.

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I would actually rather be put to sleep to have it done, I'm that scared. I'm even considering finding a way to get put to sleep. I would even pay money.

See if they can use a sedating drug as well as Versed (prior to anything starting of course, the idea if that you don't remember any part of it). That is how I had my colonoscopy done and I remember none of it.

Thanks. I will ask about that.