I think you are BRAVE, yaku.

hugs,
-RT

I see, I misunderstood or would not have mentioned it due to my own triggers about contagiousness. Please be careful. There are things I read in my communities I have definite body memories, or nightmares from contact with the material when I know I did not experience any of the trauma they are expressing. I feel triggered I may have been contagious or planted a garden. Please take care to observe the material rather than mold a situation. I can't really help anymore, but I hope you can discuss the current situation with your T. It's very hard to process any sexually related trauma.

Don't worry, nothing planted. This is something that came up as a memory that I already kind of had a long time ago, that was already there and was told to T years ago...I just have no ability to gauge what went on from the parts I do remember, so it was more like...it relates to that, but I don't know what went on except the part I remember experiencing. Anyway, sorry, I have to delete everything.

Thanks to everyone who replied in case you didn't see my original thanks. Sorry. I am just scared about the stuff that's coming up for me.

Sorry if what I added brought up new stuff. I was worried.

(((((YAKU)))))

I didn't get to read your original post. Just wanted to send hugs. I know how awful it feels when triggered so much that posts have to come down. Hope you feel better soon.