Last Sunday, when I arrived at my Mom's house to take her to a movie, she went insane on me (again). I took her home and told her I wasn't going to do this with her anymore. I have been upset and distracted all week. I have a skin care spa and she has an appointment for a facial on Tuesday. I don't know how to deal with her - I am becoming convinced that she has Borderline Personality Disorder - so all I know to do is to protect myself.
We hadn't spoken since the attack Sunday. Usually, I call her every day to check in. But this week I just couldn't. I was occupied with trying to heal my pain. I kept getting more and more anxious about seeing her Tuesday and being alone with her again, so I wrote her an email:
Mom,
Due to the current circumstances, I think it would be best if you did not come for your facial on Tuesday.
(my name)
She writes back:
(my name) - I think it is time to bury the hatchet - this is no way for such a small family to endure. I plan to keep my appointment on Tuesday - after all, it is my machine and I am entitled to get the use of it.
By the way, where is your list for Christmas - I don't suppose you will help decorate the tree this year but perhaps I can manage.
So I reply:
I am not going to be in an abusive relationship. I do not feel safe being alone with you.
To which she replies this morning:
PLEASE CANCEL MY APPOINTMENT – I HAVE GIVEN YOU ADVANCE NOTICE OF APPROXIMATELY 75 HOURS.
Okay, so that solves the "I don't want to touch her or speak to her" problem, but it in no way solves or begins to solve the "why do you lash out at me for no reason and then expect everything to be swell the next day - no acknowledgment, no apology, nothing. It's like beating a dog and then expecting it to still like you.
I simply don't know what to do or what to say or how to deal with her anymore.
HELP ME