today some thoughts from the past kept creeping into my head and yes it was very triggering and bothersome and it got me to wondering ,is this the kind of stuff you share with your T. i read a lot about people sharing memories and stuff with T but are vague in content.

i was thinking about the times that the mother hurt me so bad i needed to go to hospital and it got me so angry and upset.i had gone to hospital for stitches a few times and once because my head was split open and i had to stay there because of a concussion. things like that.it wasnt like she would just slap me accross the face although she did plenty of that.it got me angry about how it didnt bother any of these people at hospital no one questioned the mother.you see she worked in the lab there and it was a small hospital.in fact her best friend and the mother of the guy who CSA me was the head of radiology there.the mother was friends with all of them.so i guess they never questioned and i kept my mouth shut. i get angry at that a lot. i had had pic taken of all my bruises at times and were brought to a lawyer but because my farther didnt want the mother to go to jail even the lawyer did nothing. i get mad at these things sometimes and don't understand why it was like that.

my question is is this the stuff you all bring to your T and is so so hard to deal with and look at? is this what i should be putting into words for her? i know it is stupid but sometimes i have no clue what i should be saying or letting her know.or what she would want her to know .i know stupid but if i need to talk don't i need to know what to say first