Hi Everyone,

Over the last couple of weeks, with the help of my T I've made some big steps forward on my road to recovery. I've discovered a lot about CPTSD and ACOA, which I am a victim of. My biggest realization to date is that many of my perceptions of the world around me are simply inaccurate. I've learned through CBT that powerful emotional experiences that I had as a child growing up has laid down certain neural pathways in my brain. And that even now, forty plus years down the road, if I find myself in a "similar enough" situation to one that caused a fight or flight response as a child I will react the same way today.

Through the work of my T I'm slowly learning how to "rewire" my brain, to lay down new, healthy, neural pathways. Unfortunately it isn't enough to simply be aware of the fact, cognitively, that I've developed these misconceptions, and as such, am behaving in an unnecessary or inappropriate way. It requires a certain "being in the moment" approach.

I don't think this newly acquired knowledge is going to move me any faster through my therapy. I know I still have a long way to go. But it is at least a little bit comforting to have a better understanding of just what I'm dealing with. I think this new realization is almost surreal to me. It's the most profound experience I've ever had. Thank you for reading this, and I hope it gives others a pause for reflection.

LongRoad