I am in the middle of some really intense anger and am feeling like going to see T tomorrow is pretty pointless. When I'm angry, I don't talk...I completely shut down. Anger scares me to the core and I can't seem to verbally express any of these feelings. To me, anger equals hurting and pain. The last time I was feeling anger while in my session, I was unable to express myself. I could tell my T was very uncomfortable with my silence ( I am SO okay with silence..doesn't bother me a bit). I pointed out her discomfort and she acknowledged that I was correct - she was uncomfortable and admitted to her feelings of counter transference. So, I left her a message today letting her know where I was with my anger and am thinking that meeting tomorrow may not be a good idea as I'm angry and will find it difficult to talk, as well as the fact that she will likely be uncomfortable with my silence/anger. It just seems pointless to me right now. She did call me back and encouraged me to come, but is leaving it up to me. What to do? Any thoughts would be appreciated...thanks in advance...
LK