Hi All,
I finally saw my current T last week. I was in a good mood, so I didn't have heavy/deep stuff to talk about. We mainly talked about the counseling profession and different types of clients' situations.
I think next time I'm going to need to talk to T about my angry outbursts that have occurred several times over the last few months. Some of my family members are concerned. I'm usually quite passive and don't express anger, so now that I'm expressing it everyone is really shocked and scared. I'm confused. I've tried being passive and I usually end up feeling bad. I've tried being assertive, but not much changes.
I've had these angry outburst/yelling episodes lately. It's like the pressure and stress rises until I explode. My T would probably say breathe through it and not get to the yelling point. For some reason it seems to come on suddenly (almost like when I have panic attacks). I've also had a few more panic attacks lately because I've had more encounters with my ex husband and I've accidentally run into him (actually I was driving and he was on the sidewalk next to me jogging). I went into a bit of a panic attack and missed my turn and had to drive 3 blocks out of my way to get back.
I've also been waking up with dreams/nightmares about my abusive ex.

Anyway, I seem to be blowing up at one of my relatives, who is a child that seems to really annoy me when she whines non-stop. I don't want to be cruel to her. I love that lil gal.

Anyone else do this angry outburst/yelling thing? How do you stop it?