my t has, the last two sessions, taken me, mentally, away. i forgot what she called it, but maybe transe-like or meditative 'state'...'experientially away' i think she said (wish i could recall the words). when she does it, i sense and feel i am quite easily disassociated from my body, but i think she was a bit surprised at how easily i 'went away', but how hard i fought 'coming back'.

early on, she said she wouldn't really do hypnosis, but would do some 'experiental time travel' metaphor type stuff to rewire those misfires from childhood. she didn't 'believe' in doing therapy when i am not present.

i told her yesterday i wished she would just hypnotise me and rework all that stuff, she claimed she would if she could, but it wasn't a one session type 'fixing'. perhaps i noted a bit of alarm in her at the resistance i put up emotionally in coming back to the present, even though intellectually i was trying SO HARD to mind her command. she finally did the 'one, two' then talked to me for awhile as i remember just groaning, she told me to breathe, then said "mumble, mumble something something, then THREE and clapped her hand" and i kindof staggered out.

really really really weird. she kept me there thirty minutes later than scheduled to, i think, make sure i was 'sound' and although i didn't talk much after that, i feel like she somewhat hypnotised me. i went deeper, i think, than she anticipated. she seemed ever so slightly alarmed at how this all worked out, how quickly and easily i went out and how reluctantly i came back. i don't really know if that is good or bad or neither, but i am really curious if y'all have or do hypnosis??? if so, do you find it healing??? (which is my take on what she is doing this for)