Samy,
I'm sorry that doesn't sound like fun. I had to have my gall bladder taken out a few years back and I was feeling really scared about the surgery but feeling foolish for being scared and my first T said something to me that's stuck with me ever since. When a doctor performs surgery, they may be injuring you for your good, but they're still deliberately injuring you. How could that not feel scary, and especially with your background?"

So even though the doctor was electrocuting your arm to help heal carpal tunnel, he was still hurting you. I totally get why that would feel scary.

AG

Oh, Samy, that doesn't sound like fun at all! I hope you're feeling better now, and that the treatment helps the carpal tunnel.

OW

it not helps it. it were to see where the nerves were going or something. him says we not gots bad enough carpal tunnel for nothing except getting a splint to fit our arm. but most nights our hand falls asleep from it pinching the nerves i guess.

i just not like the ecectroductes.

thanks for well wishings.

samy

i can't sleep for bad dreams

samy

(((Samy)))
I wish I could chase your bad dreams away for you.
JM

Samy,
I'm sorry, nightmares are so scary and exhausting. I hope you stop having them soon.

AG

SAMY:

I'm sorry to hear that you are having nightmares. My T used to ask me about my dreams. Maybe if it isn't TOO scary for you, you should write down some of the dream so you can talk to your T about it at your next session. It couls turn out to be helpful for you in therapy.

Hope your wrists start feeling better with the splints!!!

i ben tryin hard to be so very brav but i kinda fel apart in therapy. i couldn't stop cryin. but me T is very smart and her read the blessing we gots for me. al this stuff with the arm doctor thing done bring bak so bad memories for me

i found a very good but old song. caled "Angels Watching over Me" by Amy Grant. We played it in her office. you ought to check it out. Maked me T all weepy eyed too.

i don't think i'm ever guna feel normal.

samy

oh, p.s., we having a "Scott Day" on this comin monday. he don't like birthdays so we having a special "Scott Day" instead. we even got him to buy a few shirts him likes! i'll write more oni t later ok?

Samy,
I'm so sorry, it's hard when things happen that trigger our bad memories. I'm so glad that you were able to express how you felt with your T. And therapy is exactly the right place to fall apart.

I LOVE that song! You're right that really is old Amy Grant but I can definitely understand why you would like it. I haven't thought of that song in a long time.

And Samy, normal is highly overrated. Why settle for normal when you can be you?

Thanks for the heads up about Scott's day.

AG

Hi Samy

what's causing your wrist pain? Is it the mouse? I used to have terrible wrist pain then I found a really good and different mouse. No more pain.

I am sorry you are having such a hard time. I am too.

Here's the lyricks to that song:
Samy

Take this man to prison, the man heard herod say,
And then four squads of soldiers came and carried him away.
Chained up between two watchmen, peter tried to sleep,
But beyond the walls an endless prayer was lifting for his keep.
Then a light cut through the darkness of a lonely prison cell,
And the chains that bound the man of God just opened up and fell,
And running to his people before the break of day,
There was only one thing on his mind, only one thing to say:

Angels watching over me, every move I make,
Angels watching over me!
Angels watching over me, every step I take,
Angels watching over me!

God only knows the times my life was threatened just today.
A reckless car ran out of gas before it ran my way.
Near misses all around me, accidents unknown,
Though I never see with human eyes the hands that lead me home.
But I know theyre all around me all day and through the night.
When the enemy is closing in, I know sometimes they fight
To keep my feet from falling, Ill never turn away.
If youre asking whats protecting me then youre gonna hear me say:

Got his angels watching over me, every move I make,
Angles watching over me!
Angels watching over me, every step I take,
Angels watching over me....

Angels watching over me....
Angels watching over me.

Got his angels watching over me, every move I make,
Angels watching over me!
Angels watching over me, every step I take,
Angels watching over me!

Angels watching over me,
Angels watching over me,
Angels watching over me,
Angels watching over me!

Though I never see with human eyes the hands that lead me home....