Yeah, a lot of doctors say they won't contact if the results are normal, but after my last appointment, my doctor sent a message (through their secure online center) that everything was normal anyway. I guess, after telling her about how hard it was for me to do that appointment and why, she just wanted to be extra sensitive with me, which was nice.
I got some nice validation from T that the Pdoc's message was unusual and that he may not be the best match if I'm feeling stressed. He mentioned another one, but she's no covered. So then, he reassured me that he knows this guy a little and he has a great reputation and if I decide to go through him, T "will be able to be along side, so to speak, as [I] step forward with him." Obviously, due to scheduling, T can't go into my sessions...but he can coordinate with him a bit and support me more than he could with a complete stranger. I texted him back and asked if there's anything specific I need to make sure to mention...like, I don't know if I'm supposed to bring up the dissociation stuff or just say, "I'm having a hard time since I started therapy and I'm considering medication," and then let him ask any questions he wants to.