When I contact her or check in I'm freaking out. When we talk it's fluid and relaxed but I feel bad somehow.
I'm going through a lot of life change right now, and contacting my relatives more due to birthdays, holiday, etc. T is thinking that is triggering my eating.
She told me... I'm not crazy after a conversation with my parents where I can't shake the good they do in the community... And hold my symptoms, flashbacks, recovery.,, worth...
I'm so scared she hates me. I don't even know why. She has been so attentive... And I feel settled but scared? I don't think there is a way for me to be more trusting or vulnerable with her??? It's already a lot. But it is so unconscious thing.
Her vacation maybe. I am just in tears right now and I was fine before I talked I see her in two days.
I'm so afraid of her and so comfortable at the same time. I'm convinced she isn't going anywhere but am.. Feeling disconnected. It's confusing. Emotional soup.