I would venture a guess that it's holding him at a distance while you long for him to connect a little. You might need it to be one way rather than risk interaction. He will see you and want to know you, approve of you, and help. But you don't want to see him yet because that is bringing on too much. Does sound close to what you feel?
It reminds me of a feral kitten I tamed. It was so precious, because the kitten showed it wanted to relate to me, but would do this hide-&-seek behind a piece of plywood. Kitten wanted me to see, but then jumped behind the plywood, and we did this awhile until I could touch the kitten just a second. I don't mean to compare you to a kitten, but it sounds similar.

Skylynx: Thank you for replying. To risk the interaction is terrifying...If he says something I don't understand I will not address it because it requires me opening up and being seen...Being seen is so difficult for me.

I keep telling myself it will get better with time. T.

Sp: He brought up last week how there are two parts of me...one part wants to be close and then the other part steps in and wants to protect the other part from getting close...this is when I just want to fight him and push him away...He told me to tell him when I feel this way but then I told him but I don't know why I feel this way. (I feel I have to know why before I can discuss anything with him). He said he would rather it be 'on the table' if I am feeling this way.

Step by step, I guess.
Thank you for replying, T.