Hi Smiley,
I just wanted to chime in and say it's perfectly understandable that you're upset. There's something very unsettling about a cancellation and two in a row is really brutal. And it's ok to both recognize how understandable your T's reasons for cancelling were, AND be able to acknowledge your distress and anger over having to get through this stretch of time on your own.
I have to agree with BG (that's what I'm doing today, just following BG around and agreeing with her. She saves me a lot of typing.
) that this is a really good thing to bring up in session. Therapy is about your feelings and a good T won't take it personally. It's not about making your T feel bad about doing what was necessary, it's about you being able to observe your feelings and reactions and seeing what you can learn about yourself from them. The first time I was even able to express anger to my T was about a cancellation. I remember telling him that it was hard it enough for me to get through this crap without him doing anything to make it harder. The weirdo was absolutely delighted to see me get angry. Ts are a strange breed.
I hope the time goes quickly until your next appointment.
AG