So, I did something and I would rather not say due to being embarrassed by my behavior...however, the therapist said he still wants to continue working with me.

I told him that I didn't think I could continue to see him... (My reasons) Number one, because I flat out lied to him and told him that I did't do what he knows I did...Number two...how can you reveal so much of your inner world to someone when you have personally lied and know it...

He knows I did what I did...and he continues to hang in with me...I don't understand it...I am having a difficult time understanding that concept...

So, I know he knows I did it...he has even stated such...so, why can't I just tell him that I did it? I don't understand my thinking on this...

We each have a moral code we live by and I would say I have intentionally lived my life, when it comes to treating other people, within the realm of that code...I am accomplished, own my own business, would consider myself an honest person. Trust is huge to me. Why would I do somthing to breach trust?

I told him yesterday that I don't think I can come back...because yes, there is pushing to test someone's limits and then there is a point of no return, where you cross a line and can never go back.

I really believe I have crossed a line and can't go back.

So, I guess the moral of this story is: Value the trust your Therapist has towards you and don't let your behavior, no matter how angry or pissed off you may be, ruin it. It's not worth it in the end. Not only because they are your Therapist, but because they are another human being. The worst thing to have to do is carry the residue of regret of decisions made - knowing you violated another person's trust.