Morgs

Still waiting here ....but oh 9 days for you is a mega wait Really glad you are east coast. I had been concerned,

starfish

Starfishy - it's so good to speak with you!! Thank you - I think my T reckons I've *survived* this long without assistance, a few weeks shouldn't matter and there's a tinge of truth there BUT IT WOULD BE REALLY SPECIAL IF SOMEONE (HER) GAVE A TOSS!!!!!!!!!! Coz we don't realise how alone we are until someone shows the slighest glimpse of caring and that great gaping empty longing hole in the heart opens up What a lot of self pity that was eh???

Morgs

STRMS: Thank you so much for your continuing support all along. It was hard yesterday, but better today. You are so kind, thank you.

Permafrost, Morgs and Starfish- keep hang in there, its not long now. Hope the dread for the session is under controll! (says this one, lol)

Incognito: Hope your session went good!?

DF: YEY, great news- those "normal" sessions are perfect sometimes, arent they.. Thanks for you helpful words.

*HUGE SIGH* Made it through the break!!

Had phone session with T1 this morning. Have next appointment with her on Thursday and then I see T2 on Thursday afternoon.

Is it bad that I don't even want to see T2? The only reason I am even going to her is because that was the only way T1 felt comfortable doing the phone session with me...she wanted to make sure there was someone here who was physically seeing me in person (i have an eating disorder).

So, I will continue to see T2...but T1 is my fix.

oh, and T1 told me straight away in our conversation that she was "so glad" that I texted her and that I kept her updated on what was going on in my life while she was away. She said, "Two weeks in most people's lives are uneventful, but missing out on two weeks in your life is missing out on a lot. it would have taken us three hours to get caught up! I am so glad we were able to communicate via text and I really appreciate you keeping me updated". Yay! I was so worried I had texted too much, that I was bothering her. It was so great to hear this from her!

Morgs

I'm all for the self pity now and again ....and I agree with you that it doesn't matter how long ago 'what went before, went before' and without assistance - this isn't then it's now. And even worse, if your only outlet happens to be someone who's not there when you need them most. I've swallowed my hurts down so many times in the last couple of weeks, I feel I have no room left inside. Yet I know I won't have a clue where to begin to tell how its been when I finally see her - sigh.

Hug back Morgs,

starfishy

((Starfishy)) thank you for understanding I don't often open up and when I do, feel like a great git So to know someone understands is really validating I'm sorry you've had such a difficult time lately (those outlaw in-laws of yours are in a league of their own) - write everything down for your T so you get it all out
Gotta go now - house guest arriving soon
Take care

Morgs

so i saw my T today for the first time after the break and it went so badly that i have now made appointments with 2 other T's for this week and one for next week. I told him that I would see how it went with the other T's and keep an open mind, even though right now i really dont want to work together anymore right now. I don't think I'll update on any of this, at least till i work stuff out with my T or start seeing another T.
Take care everyone

I'm sorry your session went so badly. I hope talking to other therapists helps you decide what is best for you. Let us know how you are doing if you want support. We are with you.

Dear Mac,

It must have been pretty awful for you to move away so quickly. I'm really sorry, and I hope things settle for you soon. We are here if you want to talk about it.

Love,
Jones

Sorry to hear that mac, I hope things improve quickly for you.

Four more sleeps for me, it feels like it has been an eternity.

I'm sorry to hear that too Mac. I hope things are better soon. (((Mac)))

Mac I am sorry too (((mac))))

Morgs, are you nearly there yet? How is the waiting? I had a difficult session, helpful but difficult and now reeling a bit. It will settle I know, hang in there Morgs and others in waiting...

starfish

Thanks everyone Really means a lot.
I've seen three therapists now, the first 2 were duds and totally creepy, the one I saw yesterday was beyond perfect and i got A LOT of answers. Won't be seeing him again but he was very very helpful and I'm so happy I decided to talk to someone else. We had a really long, almost 2 hour session and we talked about lots of stuff to talk to my T about, so hopefully when I see him on tuesday I won't back down or skimp.

Hello Mac
You've really gone about this situation in a very clever way and it's great that you've armed yourself with info from another T. Hopefully you won't back down or skimp and there's a good outcome when everything's on the table


Thanks ((Starfishy)) - you will settle - it's hard after a break 5 sleeps 6 days - who's counting??? Have had the distraction of a houseguest for a couple of days - that helped
Take care all
Morgs

Two sleeps to go....

Are you going to tell your T just how hard it has been?

I am going to say the separation anxiety is horrible and I need ways to cope with it.

I have been on heaps of different antidepressants and I still don't think this one (Pristiq) is helping much either. I feel really low and extrememly anxious.

Hi,

Coming really late to this thread. Just read the first post by Frog and the last page so I have to go back and read it all to catch up.

I was ignoring reading this thread because I thought it had something to do with New Years Eve or resolutions or somethings. I'm sorry I didn't read it sooner.

I will go back and read everyone's posts but just wondering how many more days Frog till you see T? It must be soon!!!

Liese

Okay, just finished reading through the thread and realized that all of you have probably seen all your T's and don't need this thread anymore! So typical of me to show up to the party when it's over.

All the posts to be so touching. Feel bad Mac had such a bad session this week. Wondering if you'll start another thread about it, Mac. Only if you want. If you want to work it out with T first, that's okay too.

Frog, I loved that first dream you had. You were so descriptive. I was wondering about the part think you "stole" T's shirt and felt guilty about it. Was thinking that maybe you were seeking the comfort of being close to T but then felt as though you did something wrong. As if there is still something forbidden about seeking comfort with him? But in the end, T told you could keep it, that it was okay to seek that comfort? Very interesting dream.

Anyway, so I know that this thread is basically dried up since vacations are over. So sad that I thought it had to do with New Years Eve. Silly me.

Liese, you crack me up! So you missed the last round but I have 2 days and 23 hours till my next one. ~D. P.S. Happy new year, haha!

Hi Debbye!!!

So glad I'm jumping on board during round two!!! We can always count down, can't we? I have 21 hours 50 minutes!!! Not too bad, huh?

Jane, that is awful, you have been dealing with so much family trauma that two more days is no small thing. I am sorry it turned out like this.
Pan

Oh JD, I'm sorry you have to wait 2 more days. I hope it goes quickly for you. (((hugs)))

Thinking of you (((JD)))
I have two days and one sleep now!!! Probably won't be able to utter a sound after so long
Take care
Morgs

Oooh, getting close Morgs! I hope your session goes well and you are able to speak once you get there.

Hi Morgs
You have been so quiet on the board and now i know why, no voice. It is nice to see you around though.
Pan

I'll be thinking of you Morgs and hoping it all goes well! Let us know.

TN

Hugs Morgs, nearly there.

Thank you for all your support here to others whilst patiently waiting yourself,

starfish

Morgs

I hope today's session was ok after that seemingly endless break for you. Also thoughts for you as the people in your country experience such dreadful floods, the devastation is so immense.

Do let us know how it went today,

starfish