I have had three therapy sessions so far. I feel like since I started my anxiety has been very heightened and things seem a lot harder. However T. says this is normal as lots of feelings that I have blocked for a long time are coming closer to the surface. At my latest session on Friday, I went in very nervous after having a hard, long week. T. was asking a lot of questions and really pushing me. After a certain point, I just couldn't answer any more and just started saying, "I don't know." Then I felt really embarrassed and started crying! I guess it is normal to cry in therapy... but I felt so ridiculous to be crying about really nothing particularly important. T. was nice about it and told me she has seen a lot of people cry and she could sit with me in the moment, but I felt so strange about it. Also, she didn't hand me a tissue or pat me on the shoulder or anything which just felt really weird. I have never been in therapy before so I don't know the rules... but every time I have cried in front of someone like a supervisor or teacher, they have had some kind of physical reaction. My t. just sat there and watched me cry. This didn't feel good... although crying in general felt like a good release and I do think the next session will be easier. Any comments about crying in therapy and therapist's reactions?
Thanks!