This is SUCH a hard topic for me, too! It scares me to no end to admit that I have anger inside of me. It also is just plain hard to talk about, because my past is full of negative and painful experiences when I expressed any emotion.

He can handle the darkness. He won't hate you. It's his job to help you. He's going to want you to get this part of you out, to bring it into the light, because that's the only way to fully move through it and stop letting it consume you.

A somewhat funny aside - I was mad at my T for something, and when I saw her the other day, I talked about everything but that thing that made me mad. It took T saying flat out "you're mad at me, just admit it already so we can get to work." It was kind of funny, but it's true, I was mad at her and was afraid to admit it. She already knew it, so when she finally did coax it out of me, it opened a whole new conversation about how to start to accept the anger and darkness from my past, and how to move through it in therapy.

Ang and R2G,
It's so good to know others struggle to express anger. This is THE issue my T wants me to tap and to date, I have not been able to do it. I can finally admit that there might be anger in certain circumstances, but I kick it away so quickly.

Ang, I think your T would see it as a major step if you can share with him these dark places. I guarantee that he won't hate you. I have read a T's blog where he actually sees this as something that helps "nurture" the work. Seems SO bass akwards to me, but I think these people expect it.

Let us know how it goes!