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Help! Attachment running rampant.

I have not been to T in about 3 months, but as i have stated (and I know this is weird, but it is what it is) since we both go to the YMCA- I occasionally (been seeing him often lately) see him there.

A few days ago- I arrived and he was swimming- and since I did not want to disturb his practice, I thought i would say hello when I was finished. Well- I never saw him leave until he was at the door, so I txt him just to tell him that he has my permission to say hello to me without me initatiating (butchered that word) the exchange. He replied... that he did not see me, but yes we should always say hello.
Yesterday- I went to swim and his car was in the parking lot, so I wrote a note and put it on his car- "Good morning T - working on being seen- you know, big red truck an all" (I drive a red toyota Tacoma")
I saw him in the pool- we briefly chatted and he left.
Here is the emotionaly confusing part- and intellectually I know he is responding to my note, but....
His txt to me this morning- "Hi Hele, I want to see you!" Ahhhhh.... what do I say to that? Do I respond to the txt, at all? What do I say if I do respond? Do I address my confusing feelings with him?? (But I am not in therapy) Do I stuff it and ignore it? (this is what I am leaning toward) I do get what he is addressing- about "beig seen" but his txt is still triggering the attachment stuff, and I think he must know that.
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you have such a great sense of humor. You crack me up, Draggers! I want you stuck to my windsheild. Just for a fly-by- a dragonfly visit. Smiler

Sometimes- even from the beginning, T does things or says things, that make me freak out a bit- and I can't identify the source of the freak out. It is not his words at all, (intellectually- I get it) but rather it's my feelings and internal reaction to his words or his actions. I wish I could figure it out. It is like he is representing someone else in my inner self, and I don't have a clue about why the confusing feelings come up- nor do I know what they mean. I act rather shy when I see him in public, even when he tries to normalize the encounter. (and I really am not a shy person) Ah... I need to be grateful that I have a loving but at times confusing T, and just live with it I guess.
A friend of mine said that I suffer from catagory confusion. Anyone hear of that? Perhaps because I suggested to T (about 6 months ago) that we should be friends, not T and client any more. He really never responded to that one though.
I think I need to research the topic about "being seen" by others.
Thanks BB and LG - maybe he thinks I NEED to go back to therapy, but I don't think I need to at this time. (Maybe he misses me- now that is a deep- scary thought. Wouldn't it be nice if our Ts missed us for once?)

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