(((Ninn)))
So sorry to hear about losing your P. My first T retired and it's really difficult to have that happen, especially since you have a long history with her. Combine that with it being the Christmas season (never an easy time) and her recommending ECT, of course has you reeling a bit.

I find both the sadness and anger very understandable. But I am also glad that you recognize that just going off your meds would be hurtful only to you. FWIW, my first T quitting led to me finding my present T who has been a tremendous blessing in my life. I hope something even better is out there for you and you find them quickly.

And don't get me going about the three week holiday breaks! I just did a three week break with T because of the American Thanksgiving (major holiday here) and a grandson being born (I ask you, choosing a grandchild over your clients? What kind of priority is that? LOL I couldn't even get mad! ) I saw him last week and next week, then we're looking at another three week break for Christmas since he is going out of town.

SO take the extra appointments that your T is offering. You're facing a lot and extra support just seems to make sense. And I think its ok to trust your T to set her boundaries. If she's willing to come in, then she's making the choice. My T, who has incredibly clear boundaries, definitely goes the extra mile when I am facing a truly difficult situation. I think losing your P definitely qualifies. I hope the time passes quickly for you either way.

AG

Thanks for your warm response AG. That's a lot of break time for you with your T. I hope you're doing okay.

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(((ninn)))

There's never a good time to hear that sort of news, but I'm sorry it has come at such a difficult time of year

I hope you will take care of yourself and use the extra support of T, keeping meds the same because going off will only make this time more of a challenge, as AG said.

Maybe giving new P a chance will be better than you imagine, even though it is a painful process. You have a great attitude about knowing what you want in a P now, and taking one step at a time. Hang in there

Thank you, AH.
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